Sunday, April 17, 2005

Chup!!!!

waiting for results ....... u score better than u expected n voila r u happy or what!!!!!!!!! there is nothing much 2 say but feel d numb ecstasy flow thru u ............

u r doing absolutely nothing and have no major expectations either n get a news that u have been offered a job with a firm u would have loved 2 work with anywhr anytime !!!!!

the moment when the boy/girl u really love admits to d same ....wow it feels gr8 ...actually think of it n i still donno how 2 react 2 it .......all i can do is smile ear to ear n feel nostalgic all over again..

thinkin of all d good bad times u shared with ur dearest friends (old-new) .....can only smile right??

fights with dear ones and making up later n laughing about it later

first time u go 4 ur job ...d look that ur mom gives u....a mixture of concern n pride

the time when u really wanted something , wanted 2 achieve something n had worked really really hard for it.....d moment u get get it.....

when u survive a major accident or cruise through a convoluted situation

well inspite of myriad of emotions flowing thru me during all this time ....anger,surprise,happiness,pleasure,sorrow,hope,satisfaction,support,expectations...still i dont really have words to say to myself ....all i do is keep silent....as if i just ran out of words ....

Silence .......it is during these silent times that i actually communicate to myself.....my true inner self...as they say .... "silence speaks louder than words".....a time when i am THINKING.........thinking of how all these years (22 to b exact :P) have passed as a matter of minutes,isnt it?

well how singers use it 2 create wat v call wondeful compositions ...crooning 2 a melodious number when they go all silent n start all over again ....OHHHHH ....isnt that effect absolutely touching n....well i really donno wat 2 say...

i have learnt to listen to it,to its voice, to its desires, to its pains and they are always there to guide me ahead in life as they always were....shutting it off closes doors ........ it is in these SILENT times that lifes major decisions and promises are made ...promises to oneself,decisions for myself..a time when i am ME